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This epic soul of a man Bill Lawson passed away at 91 years yesterday in our beautiful Hospice House with his wife Irene,son Dan and daughter Deb and her daughter Rebecca around him. We’ve all lived in the knowledge that he would leave with his last cancer diagnosis but, in true Bill Lawson form, he lived longer and more passionately than we could have imagined. Right up to his last few weeks he was bright and shiny, effusive with love, hugs and kisses. This was a man who loved BIG…. Some of my best lessons came with him- first fighting against him to learning to stand up to him and then learning to find common ground. We could talk politics or world affairs in the end without offence and to be able to respect each other’s views. Some of my biggest joys in the last few months was taking he and Irene pumpkin or nettle soup with biscuits, he’d be so happy.
It’s not sunk in that he’s left this mortal coil yet, mostly because he left such a giant imprint in the world. The day before he died, while mostly sleeping he opened his eyes and reached up and said “Ok Stevie, I’m coming”… this gave me more comfort than I thought possible but I knew Steve would come to take him home. The second picture is what was happening out there in the sky as he left- how fitting that it would look like that to welcome him back. Be blessed on your journey Bill… I love you FEROCIOUSLY.❤️⭐️❤️

I had lunch with Lisa Money yesterday, what a pleasure to catch up with her. She gave me this, they got a star for my Guy, Steve the Star , even named on his birthday this year. What a beautiful, thoughtful gift for us, to look up in the sky and know his star is up there with him wheeling around it. Thank you Lisa, I love you💚⭐️🙏🏼

Its my guys birthday…these pictures were taken on his last birthday here. He’d spent a week in the hospital in Aug of 2024 and got to be released on his birthday. He was so happy and relieved to be home but looking at the middle pic I can really see how exhausted he was. But he always put on a big happy smile and joked around. Love you ferociously my sweet man.💚

Me after You

I’m still me
How can that be
Without you,I thought I’d stop
Full stop
But I didn’t
My heart still beats
My lungs still inhale and exhale
I still bathe and eat and drink coffee
I still wake up, annoying as that is
sometimes
But how
How can one keep living and
moving through life
when the one your life revolved
around leaves
I know you didn’t plan to leave me
But leave me you did
Holding your breakfast in a bag
as I stood sobbing at your bedside
Raspberries and cream
You still left
I didn’t plead
I didn’t beg you to stay
I knew, deep in my very bones
I knew
How badly you wanted to go
How hard this life had been
I knew
Standing with soggy raspberries and a thousand tears
I knew you had to go
I still know
But I’m not sure how to know
who I am now
I still make the bed as soon as I get up
I smooth out your pillow that Ella
the dog now sleeps on
I have a favourite dress
One that you’ve never seen
But one you’d love
You’d call it a B***y dress
And grin maniacally
It makes me smile when I put it on
knowing how you’d react
I sit in your spot at the table
I just couldn’t bear looking at
your empty chair
I read somewhere when one loses a partner to try and go
Back
To who you were before you met
Well Jesus
I was 15, wearing 80’s headbands
dressing like a punk rocker
I was 15, falling in love, with my whole life ahead of me
Even then I wanted my life to be
with you
I got my wish
For that I’m wildly grateful
For the heartbreak, the missing you
the uncertainty of what comes
next….
I’m trying to embrace that
I’m trying to accept this part
Accept that grief will be my
constant companion
I’m just trying to learn to be me
Without You

EL

I pulled this card today and it sums up the gratitude I live in for the people in my life. My birthday was incredibly peaceful and lovely and thinking about it as I went to sleep that night was just how DAMN LUCKY I AM. Life has definitely had its s**t moments in the past few years but my gratitude for my kids and family, treasures of friends and community who consistently show up for me is mind boggling. A multitude of thank yous to all who took time to reach out!! Love love love to you all🙌💫💚🌝🌞🌻

When your bestie knows how very over Summer you are…she brings the Halloween magic!!! coco jones (nana toto) 🙏🏼❤️

Well here we are, on Saturna, a year since we celebrated Steve’s life, on the Solstice, on Father’s Day. It all feels like a lot. So many circles and cycles closing and repeating, sometimes I feel breathless in the spinning.
Coming home to Saturna always does this anyway, although not born here, all my awareness started here. I feel my parents around, my Dad who awoke in me love of nature and perhaps just a bit of trauma of living precariously and always just flying by the seat of your pants! Being his daughter is one of my biggest privileges.
Then my Love Steve, he’s so interwoven with all my experiences since childhood when he would give me a quarter or a puka shell to ride my bike at recess or then in my teen years when he became my whole world. Watching him become a father is also one of my biggest privileges. Going from being a Boser to a Lawson had its bumps and lumps for sure but becoming a member of this warm and wonderful clan is also such a privilege and to my Father in law Bill, you are an epic soul of a man and to my sister in law Deb, mourning her beloved Archie (this is also their wedding anniversary) I love you!
As I sat writing this John Denver’s Good to be back home again came on and I was transported back to 1975. We had moved to Gleichen,Alberta the year before and my parents struggled, my Dad with work and my Mom with adapting so exactly a year later we packed up and moved back and driving through the Rockies, our lives packed into our green station wagon I woke up to this song playing on the radio and my parents singing joyously to it, we were going home to our island, I felt so safe, so happy and the rest is history.
Kendall and I went to Russell’s Beach last night and spent hours beachcombing and reminiscing of the picnics with my parents and Cory, of shake and bake chicken and potato salad while we swam until dark. Although bittersweet I’m such a lucky human to have these times in my back pocket, such a treasure. Happy Father’s Day to those Earthside and to my dearest souls Spirit side. And to the rest a most Blessed Solstice.🌞🐦‍⬛🌞🐦‍⬛

Oh my Kendall B!! Wishing you the Happiest and most beautiful 33rd Birthday. I know there’s been so much hard and not great lately which is why it’s so important to celebrate the good and wonderful which you truly are. You’re the rock in the family, much to your own detriment but oh the light you carry! Thank you for being you, my wish for you is the next year brings you all your heart desires ( the fairies and I are working on it😉)…. I love you Kendall Alexandria Lawson!!!⭐️🌷💚

These last few weeks have been heavy; a seemingly continuous interplay of grief and survival with not a lot of anything else. Some times are just that… heavy. A time to just get through the day intact and that’s ok. I’m learning to just be… to sit on the porch and drink tea or poke about in the garden. To let my tears fall or to power watch Ted Lasso again and again and again…. Whatever helps.
Today, magic was needed, protection was needed and some joy in the doing was needed too. As a kitchen witch my altar is often my stove and there’s been some times recently where I simply could not cook, could not make anything taste good, so much so the kids were offering to cook as everything tasted like sadness and ash.
It seems to have come back now, thankfully but when I hit those fallow times it’s a sure sign to just rest, to not push, to allow whatever I’m processing to just move through me. So as I let this little candle burn and the magic to do its job I’m sending out love and blessings to all, look after yourselves, be kind and remember to keep looking for the magic that surrounds us. That’s why we’re here.🌞