Bryan Fontez

I turned 40 last week and Heather Fontez hit me with some of the best gifts I've ever received.

The surprise party full of friends and family was amazing.

The beautiful photo album of hand-written personal messages and memories from all the important people in my life made me emotional.

But this message from Jay Buchanan made me break down in tears and had me sobbing uncontrollably.

I have been feeling deep shame for letting my musical talent and creativity go to waste the last several years. Since Last Bullet ended I've had a strange love/hate relationship with being creative and writing music. I have a deep passion for it, but I also feel like a huge part of my musical identity died with that project. It defined who I was for a very long time. It gave me clear purpose and goals at a time when I had none. I also feel immense pressure to produce something of quality everytime I sit down to write, so much that it gives me anxiety.

But this message hit home and felt cathartic. Hearing from someone I respect soo much musically made me feel like it's ok to take a break, it's ok to feel uncomfortable, it's ok to grieve something that was such a large part of your identity for soo long.

Side note... Jay Buchanan is the Frontman of RIVAL SONS, one of my favourite bands of all-time. I'm not exaggerating when I tell you that I consider him to be one of the top 3 best vocalists in Rock N' Roll history. He has an insanely unique and diversely dynamic voice that is a combination of blue eyed soul, motown and blues. He can go from a ferociously unsettling scream that could command the demons of hell, to a heartfelt, angelic whisper that will break your heart.

Thanks Jay. Regardless what happens in the future, I needed to hear that ❤️🤘