Learning Curvy

I used to think the same way about my body as this young woman does about hers....
I was able to accept my body even at my largest size with the MOST 'flair' ever... I'm proud of that!!

anyway: I love this reel.

Farming While Beige dude gives his undiluted, witty, hillarious opinion on things...
it's his witty opinion on what he likes.
in this instance: the topic is what he finds attractive.
and I love it.

as I age and heal, my body is changing in so many ways...
but ya: there is a certain person in my life who finds me attractive.. the one I find attractive... and it has f**k all to do with out bodies...
now that being said: there's a dichotomy...
no matter how my body changes, it's attractive to the people that like the things that make me 'me'... and not 'in spite' of my body...

It's hard to explain... it's bias. It's perspective. It's context.

I hope that young woman figures out that 'boys' liking you better means f**k all if they are not a good fit anyway.

If the media images are like buckshot... to draw as many eyes as possible... they do it because they strip the individuals of their character... your character will be a perfect fit for very few people. That's what makes actual connection special.

ugh. Late night ramble.
enjoy the reel, you gorgeous creatures, you!!!

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I continue to become stronger.
the "goals" i have set for myself are more like milestones or projections. I dont have to really do anything... I know they will come. I am incredibly grateful.
the goal that is captured in these pix was that I would be able to ride a roller coaster.
I am 10 months in and Wednesday, july 8th, 2026, after DECADES of not fitting into a roller coaster, I DID.
I rode them with my daughter.
I cried. it was bliss.

I have not had any kind of surgery.
I am not taking any drugs whatsoever to bring on these changes... in fact, my meds for hashimotos disease has recently been lowered.
these results and improvements in my health are happening because Sept 1st 2025, as a personal experiment, I became .
I stopped eating all carbs: including all fruits and veg.
has healed me. I reversed my , I lowered my , my constant excruciating pain from has gone from a daily 8 to under 3 and many days, its zero. ive gone from scooter to rollator to cane to NOTHING.
As my strength grows, I expect the distance I can walk to increase.
from what I can tell: these results do seem typical.
I STILL HOLD THE BELIEF THAT EVERY BODY IS A GOOD BODY. I STILL BELIEVE EVERY BODY DESERVES RIGHTS AND RESPECT.
I am angry that I was misled for such a long time and that our society is set up the way it is: to make people sick af for profit.
gonna share unfluencers i like soon. i change my mantra to ditch starvation rather than ditch diets. Diet mentality and fat phobia can still fo into the sun.

I love Monte Mader for insightful, intelligent posts about global issues and she brings receipts with fire.

This one is about what "worthy" actually means.. and how we have intrinsic value... and its absolutley nothing to do with the scale.

Your body is the least interesting thing about you.

today is my 55th bday.
ive been up to a lot of fun stuff in the last little while.
I am so grateful to be alive and also getting stronger all the time!
my pain levels have gone down SIGNIFICANTLY.
I want to scream.from the mountain tops because, as it turns out, what I thought was not possible actually is.

we can do this

Big Announcement.
TL:DR... I'm unintentionally losing weight. It's messing with Super Fat part of my identity I've held very dear for a very, very long time. I will ALWAYS support Fat Liberation no matter what.

way longer version:
Much of my 'learning' has had the goal of how to best live my life joyfully and not feel like utter s**t all the time, physically, mentally, and/or emotionally.
it was important for me to
-recover from 40+ years of Eating disorders,
-unlearn a lot of lies and stigma and internalized hatred
-learn how to radically accept my body and self as I am 100% right now (that still stands! Always)
-how to accommodate my needs when the world would marginalize the s**t out of me for various reasons.
-learn about my specific needs and strength
-do my own research, and find what works for ME, and navigate around so much noise and bulls**t that is SPECIFICALLY created to confuse people for profit (this took a long time to figure out)
-understand I only have to take care of myself. What works for me might not be for everyone; and everyone is driving their own bus.
-figure out that attraction has NOTHING to do with how a person looks no matter what the advertisers would tell ya.
-see that 'visibility' can make you a target... I'm ok if I'm not included in advertising campaigns, thanks. I don't need to see myself in media to know that I exist and the way I exist is real.
-come to believe, and will always believe, btw, that people deserve respect, rights, and basic s**t NO MATTER WHAT SIZE. There are simple ways to be inclusive and, things like not having a chair without arms in places like waiting rooms or restaurants is malicious at this point.
-know that Body Diversity is real.
-embrace that: All bodies are good bodies. Full stop.

**if you are adverse to info on diet or ways of eating as a means to health, or mentions of wl, this is a nice place to stop reading.**

How I've changed/what I'm doing

TL: DR: I am now Carnivore since Sept 1, 2025 and I'm LOVING IT.

I have a friend who is carnivore for a few years now... I told them ditch diets, diets don't work, he was moralizing food and that's bulls**t. Etc. etc. etc. I watched him. I didn't argue with him much: I'm a 'you do you' kind of person... and I FIRMLY believe that EVERYONE gets autonomy when it comes to how they eat.
But I care about this person! And I was worried about him. So I looked for science to figure out if what he was doing was actually dangerous.
I did this research while I was back to being pre-diabetic, (A1C of about 6.9 'lifestyle' managed down from about 8 ie: actual T2), unable to walk due to arthritis, taking pills for hashimotos disease, suffering from fybro, stage 2 hypertension, getting injections for pain management... etc. living life at an 8 most days on the pain scale I will post here (sometimes it got down to 5, but rarely).
Every thing I found about Carnivore was suspiciously 'no research has been done' when it came to low or no carb ways of eating.
but there was PLENTY of info from people on how it helped them.
I decided to see it as a test. I would do it for one month as an elimination type medical diet and document the results.

It was nothing short of a miracle.

I am not exaggerating.
My joints felt better in the first week. My insulin levels stabilized by day 3. My pain went down.
I did this because I wanted to walk again. I wanted to feel less pain.
all the issues associated with inflammation where reduced.

I've been doing this since Sept. 1, 2025.
by the second month, I could play guitar again!!
By December, my insulin levels came back NORMAL. A1C of 5.5.
My blood pressure is now either 'elevated' or 'normal' down from stage 2 hypertension.
I am working on rebuilding my muscles as they've atrophied over the years, but I can feel them getting stronger! (it used to be i could feel them being destroyed each time I tried to strength train) My walking is much improved. March 10: I walk around for about 40 minutes with only a few breaks at THE BEACH!!
I'm working with my doctor to gradually reduce my thyroid meds and we expect I will be off them soon!
I feel REALLY GOOD. I'm a 1 to 3 on the pain scale most of the time.. sometimes it goes to 4 or 5... but get this: I have experienced a 0 a few times!!! I'M SO FU***NG HAPPY!!!

All I've done is just eat meat (mostly beef, bacon/pork, salmon, tuna, sardines, etc.), eggs, butter, cheese, heavy cream, pork rinds, sour cream, water, coffee... a few zero carb things like pickles, olives, or sugar free jello here and there... the occasional social food like birthday cake or a Xmas related food for example... and that's it!
At this point, I've lost about 17.5% of my body weight.
I feel that's important to note because I was told, by doctors and science, and believed in my heart, that NO ONE could lose more than 10% of body weight without the body fighting back somehow. Especially not my body. (My body has lived through Atypical Anorexia for example.) I also believed that any significant wl would come back after and result in a net gain over time.
All the 'results' that were given by places like WW were for bulls**t weight loss of things like 5% wl held over 3 years... which is more or less negligible on a person over 300lbs. I have repeated that information on more than one occasion.
I was wrong. I think it still stands if you are trying to do it via calorie restriction...

But what I'm doing is NOT calorie deficit. I am NOT forcing starvation on myself in an attempt to make my body to eat it's self.
I had to recover from the eating disorders first. I eat what I want. I eat until I'm full. I can do whatever I want. I want to be free from pain. I'm happy to not eat carbs if I don't have the pancreas to metabolize them. If eating carbs causes me to be sick, I can choose to not eat them (or eat them if I want... whatever! I HAVE AUTONOMY!)

In closing, I also want to point out a few things:
I remain leery of drugs as a way to lose weight. It's not my thing. I strongly doubt that that's actually promoting health. But, as mentioned: autonomy for all! You do you.
I paid thousands of dollars to actually study nutrition to become an Holistic Nutritionist. I stopped that course when they offered a course in Numerology: it was clear it was more like dogma than facts at that point.
I was strictly vegan for about a decade and strongly believe that being vegan was one of the root causes for the destruction of my health. (When you are really good at being vegan/raw food it's actually called 'Orthorexia'). I am still bitter about the lies I was told and feel guilt and shame when I think of how I spread the lies I truly believed with zeal.
I'm sorry.

which leads me to the following disclaimer:
THIS IS PERSONAL EXPERIENCE. I'M TALKING ONLY ABOUT MY SELF AND MY EXPERIENCE HERE. take it for what it's worth. Drive your own bus: you are at the wheel.

this might become a carnivore experience related page... or a healing and recovery page?
I haven't decided yet. No matter how it changes: I PROMISE THE BODY POSITIVE FOCUS WILL REMAIN COMPLETELY RELEVANT AND A CORE ASPECT OF WHAT I POST.

MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT TO ALL.
I totally get it if you unfollow.

I really like Non-Toxic Masculinity... I believe Dustin Pace is in Canada? Also: I went to his merch to see the F-the-UPC shirts...
they go up to 5XL
I like all of that.

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I haven't been doing much here lately as current events are insane.

To my American followers: power to the people. I'm watching in HORROR to what's going on and I cannot even imagine.

I'm in Canada. I feel the threats to us and our neighbours to the north/east are real.
If you are in the US, Tod Maffin and co have set up a way to help health care workers come here in an expedited way. I hope this helps.
https://youtube.com/shorts/K6HOJyoHrpo?si=QdegGxPMKF6YrG09

As a Canadian, I like Charlie Angus (if you're from the US, it's the sister network to MeidasTouch) https://www.facebook.com/charlieangus.the.resistance

I like Optimistic Soap for emotionally supportive info and tangible advice on how to act in a collective way.
the video I'm linking talks about how you have until Friday to urge senate to NOT fund the Iceholes.
https://www.facebook.com/share/r/196qRiuVQQ/

one again: Power to the People.

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