Modah

Woken up this morning 18 months clean and sober and I’m feeling grateful and very proud . 18 months ago when I decided to change my life I had no idea what was going to happen . I couldn’t imagine living my life sober , I embarked on this journey of recovery giving it 110% from the start and I listened to people who had been in my situation and for the first time in my life I knew than Danny didn’t know best like I always thought I did . I went through the 12 steps of recovery and I learned and continue to learn so much about myself . You see addict don’t suffer from a drink or drug problem we suffer with a thinking problem and we use drink or drugs as a solution to block out our thoughts feelings and emotions . Going through this process the obsession of wanting to be out my nut on a daily basis has been lifted and has been for a very long time . It was learning to live life sober and to deal with my feelings and emotions sober to not try and block anything out . To talk about my past traumas that I had suppressed for many years . Confessing my deepest darkest secrets to my sponsor . I found a power greater than myself (the creator ) which I pray to on a daily basis . Looking at myself and they what I have acted the past and how I was always poor me when really I had a part to play in every situation whether it was being selfish . Dishonest . Controlling or manipulating. I can own my s**t today and if I make a mistake which I do im only human I can be accountable for that today . Today I am free I’m at peace and I can go anywhere and never thing of taking a drink or drug even when life turns up because it does still . But today I can deal with life . I spent years running from myself and I don’t know why because I love who I have become and proud of the person I am today . The gift that has been given to me is a miracle and today I help Other addicts who are in the Darkness and want to find the light . There is a solution if you want it and we do recover one day at a time if we truly want it . I haven’t made this post out of ego to say look at me I’ve made this because people suffer in silence and I’m here to show recovery is possible . My inbox is open 🙏

What a time was had at sonar off week for James stag do . Had the best time . 5 really good parties. And to be able to go somewhere like that for 4 days and stay completely sober and not even have a single thought about taking a drink or a drug is nothing short of a miracle . Getting into recovery and doing the 12 step program was the best choice I ever made . Coming up 16 months sober on the 1st of September and today I can honestly say I’m living my best life . The big book promised me I can go anywhere a free man as long as I practice the 12 steps in all my affairs . This weekend has proved that . So grateful for the life I live today . We do recover one day at a time 🙏