Calamity Braveheart

Life has a way of reminding us
Of how we were once weak and frail in the world
Of past traumas from a lifetime ago
That fly in and out of our heads like birds of prey
We let these things knock us back
When we should just open the door and leave those triggers behind us
When they come we should be ready and just turn and say goodbye
Every situation is a test of our resilience
Of how we deal with memories that cut deep like a knife through the heart
Some of us will get up after a fall
Some will fall further and some will never get back up
They just live life deep in the darkness that feels safe somehow
That used to be me for such a long time
But these days I've learnt to find the door
And I've learn which door is the right one to walk through
I am quite discerning as I live with eyes wide open
I see so much more than I ever did before
I am resilient because I choose to use triggers as building blocks
Not tools of destruction anymore
I no longer need the darkness as my safe place
I am safe in the light for I am the light
And the door holds the key
And I hold all the keys to all the doors
I am strong
I am resilient
I am whole
I am loved
Life is good

04/07/26

Dear Lord
I need to take the time
To stand still just for a moment or two
And smell the flowers and just breath
Life is rushing,rushing ,rushing
And my mind is full throttle at top speed
I cant breath and I cant function like this
I need to get away from all the noise
I need time to be alone and gather my thoughts
Dear Lord hear my prayer
Give me peace in my heart at this time
Let me breath oh please let me breath
If I cant be alone then help me cope with all the noise
Let my mind run away to my favourite places
And bring me joy like it always used to
For I am weary and I am sad
Im still grieving and its not passing
So let me sit with my grief and just breath
Let my breath fill my heart with hope
And let my prayers be heard
For I have so much love to give
If only I could breath slowly and deeply
And feel alive and at peace
Dear Lord give me peace
And hope for a happy life
Let my world be filled with joy
Joy and peace
Are all that I need
And to be at one with you Lord
Amen

02/07/2026

The magic of the cosmos
I believe
Was created by God
God is love
God is peace
God is healing
When the world gets too loud
And I just want to get off
I open my hands and turn my palms towards heaven
And I give all my troubles to God in a prayer
And I look towards the stars
And the moon up above
And I know that I am loved and I will have peace
If I believe in the magic
Angels watch over me every day
And they slip into my dreams at night
They teach me to pray
They are part of the magic
I have always believed
From the time that I first knew in my heart
I will always have love and peace in my world
And healing will come if I give it to God
This I know
This is me
Just a believer
Just a girl who loves with all her heart
I am a spiritual soul
And I am happy day by day
With my place in God's world
For he keeps me safe and sound
Even when times get dark
He brings me the light
And helps me shine my light for all to see
I am blessed
And so are you my dear friends
Bless you all

01/06/26

Its been a little while
Since I have had one of my usual dreams
Of getting oh so close to my friend the moon
If I had my way
I would spend my time
Sitting in the clouds and having a little chat
For we are on close terms,he knows my every whim
He knows that I am grieving and that tears are in my heart
Its been a little while but he will always wait for me
And he sends me all his angels to keep me company
Its been a little while but now I really need to go
And spend some time up in the sky
With my very special friend
I'm not afraid and I would go in a heart beat if I could
For the moon is where my heart feels peace
And my mind finally stays still
I need a little holiday just me and my safe place
The world is much to loud and I've just go to get away
Ive got to go today
Oh please just let me have my way
Oh dear Lord please take me there just for a little while
I pray to you with all my heart
I need to get back my smile
High above the world in clouds of pink and red
I see my friend the moon
Beckoning to me and nodding his sweet head
So in my dreams I will go to be with my dear friend
And one day I will stay there for eternity
Amen

22/05/26

I wish that I could spend a day
Far away from the stresses of daily life
Just resting my weary mind
And my ever aching body that is so very tired
Let me paint for you a picture of the place where I would go
Firstly step into a world that I have known all my life
Of magical lands and spiritual creatures
There you will find my heavenly home on earth
In a gorgeous place in the forest
Deep amongest the forest so green
A house made from the trunk of a tree
Where the branches stretch overhead like a canopy
Solid and strong with a bed at its base
A book shelf for a head board and climbing plants all around the walls
Just beyond the wide open doorway is a pretty garden fill with flowers
This place is like heaven on earth
I need to rest my brain from the stresses of life
And read myself into another world
The world of fantasy that takes me away to a spiritual place
Heaven is only as far away as the garden outside my door
Oh my goodness I can feel the peace and quiet as my mind wanders away
This pretty little place in the woods is surely waiting for me
I can see the path that would lead me there
If only I could just take the first steps
Dear Lord please let me find such a place
Perhaps I could create it right here at home
I think thats just what I need to do

07/05/26

Oh how I miss my childhood friends
The pretty little fairies with delicate white wings
The elves and pixies of my imagination when I was a little girl
And the stories I would dream up in my head when I was alone
This picture brings it all back like it was only yesterday
My grandpa's garden full of pretty flowers
Where I imagined pretty little fairies dwelled
The magic powers that they possessed
Like the way they could put a smile on my face
And make my tiny little feet dance
Its not surprising that I started to become a ballerina by the tender age of four
I believed that one day I would like to be a fairy
And I guess for a little while growing up I really was
I wish I could disappear again into this world
Where I didnt have a care in the world
Sometimes life just gets too loud
I just want to rest my fairy wings upon a leaf and dream away the day
Pretty flowers all around me and the sweet smell of nectar
Oh how I wish I could go back
Even though I wasn't always happy
There were sometimes days when I was ecstatic
And when I thought life was magical
My imagination made my life magical
Oh how I long for just a little magic
Sometimes these days life is just too hard

05/05/26

I believe in my heart of hearts
That magic spirits sent from heaven
Watch over my home and keep me safe
They protect me and my precious family even all my animals
Ive lived my whole life believing in a spiritual realm
But only now do I know that these spirits come from God
I am a child of God
The magic and the miracles come from him
Angels have followed me all of my days
As a child they came to me in my dreams
Both day dreams and dreams in my sleep
And they were my friends when I felt all alone
I had such a lost and lonely childhood
And so I was lost in such a big world for a tiny waif to deal with
These days the magic is stronger than ever
As I look up to the sky at night the stars fill the air with wonder
And the spirits sprinkle their magic everywhere
I am blessed with love and the magic of life
The world is magical to me
I see magic and wonder in everything in my world
For God has blessed me with the vision to see what others cant see
I will be blessed all of the days the God has given me
And may God bless your soul
And the souls of all who you love.

28/04/26

If I let my imagination run wild
Theres so many things that this picture brings to mind
I have such a strong mind and a strong will
I see so many things that others don't understand
I feel more deeply and I question intently
I love intensely and empathize unconditionally
I grieve more than I should but that is part of my package
Part of God's plan for me
This to me is a shrine to all the things I love
I adore tea,it is an elixir to my soul
Roses are my favourite flower of all time
Oh time how I wish you would slow down and let me catch a breath
And to the spiritual realm I wish I could escape
The books speak to me of words I gave written and words I have read
And the glowing light surrounding an angel
Well that kind of speaks for itself
If you know me by now
You know what I believe in
And today I have finally allowed myself
The time to shine
The air to breath
And the space to expand my horizons beyond my own four walls
To take myself away to where angels dwell
The place where they light up my life and my world
The magical space where I have lived alot of my days
When the world got too loud
Where imagination let's me breath
Its time to stop grieving
Its time to get back to living
Even if its not always in the real world
Because survival is sometimes using whatever tools
God gives you to make it through another day
Let it be,let it go,let there be light
Upon my soul

13/04/26

I'm still grieving
And as I do
I lose a little more of my soul
Though it goes nowhere
Its just that more people close to me have passed away
And I was not told
Until it was too late
It seems life is passing too quickly
And death is all around me like the clouds
Its hard to talk about it without shedding some tears
I must be kind to myself and tell myself its not my fault
Cancer takes no prisoners, only souls that God has called home
Its all part of his plan
Its a test for those of us who believe in him
I try to breath and slow down the days of my life
For I need to take the time to realize what's important
Memories come rushing in and some I just don't want to remember
But I don't have control of what comes and goes
And so I must just let it be
I am learning to appreciate everything and everyone
Life is good for me right now
Family are here for me
And grandchildren are a joy in my world
My days are busy and filled with the pleasure of helping others
And I sleep easy knowing God has a plan
Thats what I know
And what I believe
I am kind to myself
And kind to others
And joy is my reward
Joy is all around me and in my heart
Grief will pass and memories will remain
Thats how it should be
My faith in God's plan for me gets me up each day
And I can smile
And go forward with life with a happy heart
Knowing I am living my life according to Gods will
And with his blessing
I am loved

28/02/26

There are angels among us
They whisper my name
They are beautiful and precious
And sometimes they take on human form
They tell me that God has a plan for me
They tell me I'm living my life the right way
In the early hours of the morning They sit on my bed
When the demons haunt my dreams they chase them away
One of them is my father and he hugs me at night
Angels walk amongst us
They are my friends
They have always been there for me
In many of my darkest hours
I feel their presence every day in everything I do
And everywhere I go in my life
I believe in the spirits and the angels
And I believe they watch over me
I am blessed to have them
I am blessed in this life
I am blessed
I was blessed with a loving father
And now he is an angel who walks alongside me
Angels oh sweet angels keep me safe
And bless my soul

16/02/26