214 November

ONE YEAR OF SOBRIETY!

I never thought in a million years that sobriety would be something I would consider an accomplishment and worth celebrating. But here I am, probably more proud of myself for this goal and for all the other goals I’ve reached this past year. From holding down a job and rising up in that job, from repairing relationships that I thought I would never be able to fix, to being in a position where I can help other addicts and alcoholics make their lives better, to gaining back the trust of my family, to getting a new car and a new place, to spoiling the hell out of my cats. I’ve done so many things this year that seem so basic and normal objectively, but for me these are the things I’ve always feared. I never felt good enough or worthy enough to have the basic joys out of life. How wrong I was! Now I look forward to going to work and I’m filled with gratitude every second I’m there. Now I am filled with pride when I can show up and be accountable for my family, for my siblings to be able to ask me for help and I’m able to provide it! To being the partner and man for my other half that she deserves and to at I always knew I was capable of being. I’m so happy with my progress this past year, I’ve done things and have made it further than I EVER thought I would ever make it. I couldn’t have done it without AA and NA and the 12-steps, without my family and friends, without Sydney Hamil, my other half, without my job and my boss, and without all the positivity and encouragement I receive from you guys in this platform. I hope my grandpas looking down with pride. I hope all the homies I’ve lost to drugs and violence are proud, I hope all my brothers locked in that cage are proud. Cause I am finally proud. 🫶🫶🫶🫶

Hi Instagram family! It’s been a while. A lot has been happening. I got sober! (almost 7 months!) I got my mind and heart cleared and back on track. I got a new job. I got a new car. I’m repairing the relationships I neglected. I’m showing up, I’m being accountable. I’m doing the work.

Soon I plan on getting back in the studio. The music still pours out of me. I thought it would stop but it hasn’t.

I hope everyone out there is growing, and thriving, and fighting the darkness. I hope you’re holding your loved ones close by. These are dark times, but they’re so bright as well. We’re all walking paradoxes.

And if you’re in that dark place, I hope you can find a way out. If I can help you, I will. We all need a little help every now and again.

LOVE 🫶