Jareth

This parable is what happened to me.
I have 0 idea how to pick up the pieces of my life and myself, when at one point I could handle any trauma ANYTHING life threw at me. And 6years of 5+ types of abuse from my ex girlfriend DID NOT even come close to breaking me this hard. (In fact her abuse made me stronger in more ways)
The person who genuinely unconditionally fell in love with me, gave me care and was a gentle kind soul.. he showed me hope and promised me forever being by my side and a he gave me a healthy family experience. Him and I were the best versions of ourselves, healthy communication/healthy conflict resolution & we were HAPPY. Feeling TRULY safe for the first time in 39yrs of my life and helping him discover himself. Then he ghosted me because he is ALWAYS afraid of life, living, and he shuts down HARDCORE & he shuts everyone out anytime LIFE gets LIFEY. Anthony i know you WONT see this...
BUT ANTHONY you are a fu***ng coward.
You cant hide in your privileged bubble forever, living life will find you eventually.
I hope one day you you wake up and realize what you did to both of us. And how you broke my strength, you broke my resilience and im pretty sure you broke your own heart.
You idiot, but i will still love you forever.

OH IN CASE YOU DIDNT KNOW this page is 100%

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CHILDREN deserve to live and I DO NOT CARE if I disagree with what they practice or believe, they should LIVE.
I think that ALL HUMANS deserve to have their basic needs met AND be free to LIVE with WATER/HOUSING/HEALTHCARE as a NEED not a want.

And the government SHOULD give a s**t. I think DISABLED humans deserve a living wage & should not be called "sickfluencers" cus we are LOUD ABOUT OUR STRUGGLES. f**k that. Advocating for struggles isnt fu***ng fake.
I also think ALL WHITE PEOPLE are racist and WE need to DECOLONIZE our minds and our patterns & fu***ng listen to the voices who are being silenced.
I am a HUGE ADVOCATE & ACTIVIST in real life and online and I fundraise if I need to, give away when I need to and EDUCATE MYSELF AND OTHERS as much as I can.

I hope you see this

Until you FULLY admit to yourself that you were my ABUSER your nervous system will never get rid of the subconscious guilt, self hatred/loathing that forces you to self medicate.
I finally love myself for the first time in my entire life, I am finally thriving and achieving all my dreams. And I have confidence and hope and admitting that life is a balance. I f**k up, everyone f**ks up. But we need to all admit WHEN WE HURT SOMEONE and not just blame them for it.
I hold myself accountable for all my faults, I alsp hold myself accountable and blame myself for things that are not my fault.
It is easy to blame me, cus i do it too.
BUT NO LONGER, esp after psychologically analyzing our old conversations. You can no longer CONTROL ME OR THE NARRATIVE.
I still care about your growth and wellbeing so I am not gonna do anything to interfere.
I hope you hold yourself accountable one day.

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I am finally learning to love myself for the first time in my tragic life... it REALLY helps not being in a relationship with someone who HATED the way i breathe/talk/think/exist.
I will NEVER lose myself in someone elses pain EVER AGAIN!!!
It did bother me at first that my ex says i am the victim in our story(and her narrative) but now that i am finally HEALING and gaining self love/confidence/respect/MY MEMORIES... I know the truth, anyone who sees the scientific evidence knows the truth (if you want receipts i gottem, my therapist told me years into that she thought it was a good idea so I can see with my eyes where I was being gaslit/manipulated/controlled/coerced...)

Its almost like they DONT respect you, OR hear/see you.
I have def been guilty of this in the past, but that is because I didnt know how to have healthy and stable interpersonal relationships.
Now I am healing and making sure I LOOK AT my past so I dont repeat the same ignorant and harmful mistakes i have made.
I highly recommend it.
Highly recommend NOT looking at direct communication as an attack on your feelings.

I threw myself into my makeup during work yesterday.

(I guess makeup helps me process things again. I just painted and painted until it felt right and I transformed in a cycle of intense emotions but it came out like this)

I finally fully created my Globlin character. It is a Bioluminescent Goblin that is full of OOZING TOXIC UV Goooooo.
No one knows why but its DNA is mixed with an unknown species because it can breathe under water!
And Bubbles just seem to stick around it and do not pop... probably cus its insides are gooey

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